deep feeling from my heart

everthing will going be alright
i alway tell myself
but is there will be???
that i cant confirm now

i have left my blog behind for 3 month if not mistake

i have alot of thing need to write out to show in public

but i found that google+ is a better place for me to keep my secret

all the afaian is start to prepare their revision past 2 month ago

but i am just starting in this week

any complain??

but i dun think i have any

or i should say i used to be a last min kaki

i dun have any confident to continue study again

that what i can said,

"fail" make me scare to take a further study

i wish i can stop all my study and go to work

but unfortunately i have the burden which everyone also have

"family"

last time the power of the word "family" really can save me from the
bottom to top

i'm not saying the word not work now

but i think the power of the word is going to drop

and another word coming after this is "money"

book is beside me now but

i have sit beside it for 6 hour d

i still haven touch it

that make me feel hopeless to myself

when i study, i feel like
eh, i know this ~~~~ skip
ei, this i know too~~~~~ skip

the mood to learn is decreasing

now all i want is just pass the INTERNAL exam

that will really bring me proud and i have done my job to family

external~~~~ i will put it aside

many people say after they work will dream back the time when they study

i think i will going to take my external when i dream back my study time

A CHANCE~~~~~ NOT A CHAIN

hopefully i can make a PASS for my external too

i will write it as many as i can

right or wrong, is doesnt matter on that time

i need to settle the feeling from my heart

heart feel right, that is alway right

6pm now

there is notthing i can continue to F-ing around

i only have mood on night time for study

without any people around

without any voices come from the outside

a cup of tea or coffee

LET'S PRAY

i am back

OMG
how many year i din write something here d
oh well, whatever
no people concern also
hahahahahha

recently i like to write alot of thing
keep update my status in FB TWITTER too
is this the way to improve english?
really dun think so
i think my english will become more rojak

thing come to worst i think
coming week, exam
just make it pass is enough
i din hope so much
all i need to do is common sense isit?
can i?
isit really so easy for common sense?
think think think, really dun know what is that
ask me go eat is ok la
go remember something like penang indian food or fish soup and dessert
i remember that but i dun know what the key word leh
isit chocolate dessert, can i apply this in the scenario
make me want to double memorizing
isit become more worst
omg, i also dun know how
pls prepare some penang indian food for me in exam hall

study GRE d then see the BA
ya is SEE only
then all the food mix up with pestel and mr porter thing
really become rojak, eat 什饭 also dun have so much sayur la
now how the price for this thing?
cost me HOW MUCH
i almost broke already if pay this
i cant imagine if i study CR in the coming day
lucky angeline give some tips, think about that
feel abit stress less ^^
JUST ABIT, better than dun have ^^

in this night, listen a nice song
make my mood suddenly become better
last friday night ^^ TGIF
from kate perry
i tot is food tim, TGI friday
but the meaning is thank god its friday
hahahaha, but now already sunday
i want sing this song on next friday also cant,
because still have the fucking test on saturday
what a damn,
but whatever, i am singing this song now ^^

chatting chatting chatting,
that is my life
mission, continue to stay at afa
I WANT GO SHEFFIELD
hahahaha
because of this song, my mood really
become really nice
full of music in my mind, all stress out YEAH
i think that all for today

people alway say, follow your heart
but, my heart telling me continue enjoy leh
i want to slap gao my heart d,evil heart hahahahahha
angel alway beside me, amithaba and aleluya XD
what religion also trust abit
hope they can help me in exam,
give me some light to help me pass is enough plssssssss
hahahahahaha
TQ !!!!!!!!!

stress had been totally out this night
SWEET DREAM ^^

说不出的难过

曾经
我们美好的日子
今天竟然出现了头一个句点
我不想把这篇我们的文章
画下一个眼泪的句号

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
因为那时你我都在抢bita分数
谁知道后来关系那么密切
直到现在

我不舍得放开
我不曾想过，我会有为友情哭到这么凶
一篇文章有多少个字
也不能将我对你友情通通写出

没有后悔认识你
因为从“人参”离开后
我已经失去了光明
而你从中取代了他

现在又一次的
让我重回两年前失去的感觉
痛不欲生
没人清楚我的感受
我只能用照片表达

历史终归历史
我们只能从中学习
也只能把它当故事
把它说给别人听
可是未来
没人清楚
有人跟我说过
强者，制造机会
智者，把握机会
弱者，等待机会

你我都清楚，我们都不会是弱者
也还没有到强者
把握机会
想做什么，想读什么
现在是时候，跟回当年的兴趣走
天无绝人之路

这是为你写的一篇部落格
是你独有的文章
费尽心思，
由流泪的，返回安慰的
只是要你感受得到
友情不变的事实，3年
我们可不是白过的
虽然拉曼学院拿走了我们的聚会地点
可是拿不走在学院里的回忆

活出自己的精彩
当然，聚会肯定不会少了你
和那条八婆非洲妹的份

照片会让ww上传
不过我自己做了一个preview


勿忘我“们”
也别忘了你自己的笑容

*等你心情回复，我会给你看看之前所说的
"只能用照片来表达" 的照片给你看 ^^
cheer

hu yan luan yu

if this post i using chinese will be better explanation
but at this moment i dun have much time to taip in chinese

i dun have much to post, but i got to write something
something about
friend
friend, i want to recalculate again
the problem maybe start on mine
so i got to judge myself
am i really too cruel
am i really too sensitive
am i really want so much face given by other
am i really care about friendship
am i know you enough
am i too straight

i also dun know,
can you all pls let me know more about me
i want to know more
sometime i tot i am nice before
sometime i tot i am too playful
but, what have i become

i gave you a good news, but
you gave me a bad
all i know already tell you
but you keep in your hearts while i am so care
after care
i get slap
am i do wrong
i also dun know~~~~~~~~~~~

that is call 自作自受
i accept it now
really forgive me
will not have next time
soli for that i cant done the task
i will responsible

Casino ^^

finally 21 year old
can go casino and see how it looking
but not exactly like what i thinking
movie alway not same like the real XD
but still can accept

my mom say
the area i in is for the basic gamble kaki
if GO IN DEEPER (room i mean)
you will find the seat you sit is massage chair

*keep thinking how it look like*
and like the movie de area
*胜者为王*
@@

anyway
i go in is for looking how it look like
but got some bad environment
too much people smoking
not only in the big table
play that 老虎机
also got other people keep blow some pollution air to me
especially beside me de~~~~
oh my, win also turn to lose

in fact, i am playing some free money by giving from the mr.lim
i think now got promotion
new sign up people get rm20 for free to play
and unfortunately i give all back to mr.lim

*LET YOU KEEP IT 1ST ONLY MR.LIM*
I WILL BE BACK

so at the end, i have no win no lose
and get some smell on my shirt

so for some information about the deeper room
heard from my mom
need to upgrade the card to silver only can go to SECOND STAGE
another 2 more stage call gold and platinum
feel like going to take the credit card

how to upgrade?
is depend how much you play and how many time you spend in the casino
oh my, my dear fellow friend
who old enough can you pls teman me go inside and play
small small nvm
rm100 enough de
XD

every money you play no matter win or lose is still got point
and every point can change something
food drink souvenir or even a room (just 1 point)

something special always come in the end of the blog
XD
inside the casino have show to watch
unlimited free flow drink
*nescafe teh milo or orange*
if go in more deeper, drink is changing
food inside the casino is MORE CHEAPER then outside alot
*for particular casino*


learn alot today
how to gamble and how you avoid the smoke
and which place can enjoy
^^v
*if you are the freshmen of the casino*
you must be proud if the guard check your ic
yeah~~~~~!!!

i write too long but i love this post ^^v

plan @@

at this moment
i really feel i am a useless people
other friend fall in the social work but i still..........
when they are document the file or prepare some account
i am sleeping and dreaming
when they are break time having they lunch
i was just wake up and having my breakfast
when they are sleeping and prepare for tomorow working
i was playing facebook and prepare how late i want to wake up on tomorow

and now i planning how to make my holiday special abit
1st thing will come in of course is buffet
planning on this week and next week have 1
sing k of course but this time is with secondary friend
college friend already in busy mode

thinking want go genting have some fun
want to see how the casino look like
try some luck inside
want try try rm100
*too much free time, think too much*

before march, must play enough to express some feeling
scare got heart attack
hope not,
bobi bobi, amithaba

hope can get some job to cover my lonely holiday
or waiting people ajak go out
^^v

CNY is going to end soon
GONG HEI FAT CHOI
HUAT AH ~~~!!!! ^^

筹备中～～～

我等这天等很久了
就是唱歌的时间 ^^
虽然不是什么明星
只是想唱，想发泄
为了这天，狂练“掉了”
希望能用这首歌
唱出在家唱不出的音
*我好疯狂* XD

可惜
有些美中不足
本以为，想要约好友一起
可是，时间不合
人物冲撞
造成～～～～～～
会有机会的 ^^

就到新年了
不会有一种很高心的感觉
只觉得，平淡
不怎么期待
可是跟之前的日子比
确实新年好

今年的新年会有新玩意 ^^
之前没有去过朋友家拜年的我
今年会将我这“初恋”送给他家
有一种孤独的感觉
之前的新年，亲戚大过天
可是今年，想看看这“天外有天”
虽然暂时只是一家
可是我很感激他的邀请
*虽然我不知道他是不是想请我*
我的“初恋”跟定你了^^v
ps:初恋 = 第一次，怕误会XD

那么长的假期
要如何保持我们这段友情
人情冷暖
没有加温的友情
终有一天会变冷
出现在我身边太多离离合合的友情
要保持，我不怕做“丑人”
但是，谁能明白

伯牙善鼓琴，钟子期善听
欲将心事付瑶琴，知音少，弦断有谁听

有感而发 （二） ^^

很多事情不知道是对是错
不过就是知道
在这样的情况下
一：就是表达自己想说的
二：就是不出声

而我就是选择不出声
因为我还想保留这段友情
俗话说
多说多错
少说少错
不说就没错
意见人人都有这我知道
可是不可能永远只有配合的份吧～～

前几天去了马六甲
这是一个从未体会过的旅行
虽然只是马六甲 ><
吃喝玩乐样样齐
以最经济玩得最开心
超爱这种

其实还有一些“中上等”的享受
不过当然会有一些冲突
还好，一切平淡度过 ^^v
希望有下次
当然不会旧地重游 XD

现在身边的朋友都开始有感情问题出现
看了他们，再看看自己
我是不是没人要咧
什么感情问题都没有的我
能给什么反应咧
我只能给我所听过的，我所想的
说回给你们听
别以为我空口说白话
这些是有根据的 XD

虽然我是没有谈过恋爱
可是我的故事超动听的
失恋了，找我给你加盐加醋
没味道会变成有"火药味"XD
（这段超废的，说说罢了）

好想去唱歌
可是所问的人都音讯全无
一些就如山上自己的回音= 没答
一些就是对面山头的回音= 到不了
相约一起真难
或许。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
问的人，不是他们所想要的人吧
“投我以桃，报之以梨”
这句名句，会在我心里徘徊的
辛苦哟

朋友易得，知己难求
何谓朋友，何谓知己～～～

完

有感而发 ^^v

不想想太多
可是画面一幅幅出现

很高兴有假期多多
又怕这是一个暴风雨的前夕

人开始矛盾
在选择的路途上要做出明确
还要看看心理的障碍

一个折磨
带给了无数的痛苦

伤口撒盐
带出的泪水
是从伤口而不是因为加了盐

预言的末日
正在期待

我不会放弃
也不后悔

写的太少？
因为天晴了～～～～
^^v