守得云开

看回之前的post
还真是人生低潮

一路走来，有泪有汗

终于，学院的的旅程已经到了终点

我挽回了家族的面子

我能再次的带四方帽

不用被亲戚酸

我妈也能开口跟别人说
“我儿子毕业了”

我等了很久，这天我真的等了很久

我天天都跟我妈投诉

是她把我推进了无底深潭

让我无法自拔，难以抽身

选这科，70%是为了家人

一句“厨师赚不了多少钱”，我就来到了另外个“师”级
会计师

起初还真的不难，要多谢form5的补习老师教导有方

让我轻松的过完diploma

不懂是不是轻松过头

来到了adv 还真是要命

以前的方式竟然不管用

5张main paper 我才一张合格

心情低落，不是三言两语能解释

那时才知道情况严重

运气已经不管用

要合格，不是靠努力

因为之前的努力也都是换来悲剧

非常时期，就得用非常手段

问 "guideline"， 收风，就是生存的唯一方法

4科，要一口气pass完

还真的是想到没可能

问过老师的意见

他们都说，努力点吧

这句，害我想得太多了

另外一个意思是“很难”吗？

听到后，真的把自己想了不少后路

每一条后路所带来的是同一个后果

家人的面子，我要如何保护

我唯有自责

老师们都很热心的想办法让我们通过

也得谢谢他们，有准到

虽然给得不直接，可是已经够吃了
（有个给得还真直接） XD
谢了

当你遇见一位老师要离开学院的时候

他就会不惜一切的放水

很幸运的，我遇到两位这样的“就要离开学院”的老师

扶了我一把，好让我继续的往前

我不会忘记你们的恩惠

虽然我不明白你们教什么

可是谢谢了

有想到，找一天，请两位lecturer吃顿饭

或者打包快餐给他们，以代表谢意

这天，应该是在我要拿毕业帽时吧 ^^

对于这次的毕业典礼，家人不是很支持

他们说等你degree回来先

那么就是说，我还有一个degree路程

应该会比较好了吧

做工后，去散散心，读读书

就没有那种想要跟妈说不读的这回事

到时才办吧

可是这轮的毕业典礼，我应该也会死死的去

人生有多少次，能拍一次得一次
错过了，就没了

学院路程圆满结束

开始接触社会

一切从低做起

我也等着公司的call

别让我等，好吗 

老实说

写这篇文章

我已经留了不少眼泪

我所受的，我终于可以放下了

我的任务完成了，包袱减轻了

所留下的眼泪，是开心的

我跟上了步伐

我可以毕业了

存在

当面子书已成了大部分人的天堂时
我就想开始离开
开始在另一个领域再出发

人生的道路真的很多

但是要做出选择才是痛苦的

面试了第一次

个人认为实在糟糕

也碰巧的，我也没什么like-ky那位仁兄

希望他别找我，好让我不用想如何退他

可是另外的角度

如果他不找我，那么就相等于我不适合

人真是矛盾

下个星期考试成绩就要出了

在写这一段时，我停了30秒

我要从何说起

走了那么远，我就快要到终点

我把我的毕生功力放在这次的考试

希望，也只有希望能全部过关

再还没到那个时候，写下这部落格

记录现在的紧张心情

希望“它”不会令我失望

话说，朋友们都开始各奔东西

虽然我还在努力寻找

可是也得有人给我个email 或者 sms 或者一个call 吧

那些人是看到我不敢请还是

因为我是男生？

心想女生的机会永远比男生好

可是女生的机会只有在30岁前

那么我是否应该30后才找呢

想太多

吃了4天的sushi king

今天突然没去，还真的不习惯

smoke salmon 的香味芬芳扑鼻

我无法忘记

这个月真的太花了

我需要一份工来维持

一份购物list已经在脑海中徘徊

钱啊～～～

每天都不够睡

今天，就睡个够吧

天塌下来，还有这个家帮我撑着

因为你，我不会垮

哭不出来，带我走

我接受不到

这个残酷的事实

比我想象中还更差

我把门关上了

开门出去时

我要怎么面对世人

我要怎么面对我妈

努力过，又有什么用

我尝试把它考好

可是standard在哪里

读了20余年的书

我不想再来多一次了

我累了，一次也不想

但是事实都会超乎想象

计划赶不上变化

我知道，我没时间

手上的东西太多

我没办法放下

唯一能做的，就只剩下那次机会了

死活，就看这两个月

脑海中，浮现出的

不是曾经读过的

而是一句句难忘的歌词

我想哭但是哭不出来

带我走

deep feeling from my heart

everthing will going be alright
i alway tell myself
but is there will be???
that i cant confirm now

i have left my blog behind for 3 month if not mistake

i have alot of thing need to write out to show in public

but i found that google+ is a better place for me to keep my secret

all the afaian is start to prepare their revision past 2 month ago

but i am just starting in this week

any complain??

but i dun think i have any

or i should say i used to be a last min kaki

i dun have any confident to continue study again

that what i can said,

"fail" make me scare to take a further study

i wish i can stop all my study and go to work

but unfortunately i have the burden which everyone also have

"family"

last time the power of the word "family" really can save me from the
bottom to top

i'm not saying the word not work now

but i think the power of the word is going to drop

and another word coming after this is "money"

book is beside me now but

i have sit beside it for 6 hour d

i still haven touch it

that make me feel hopeless to myself

when i study, i feel like
eh, i know this ~~~~ skip
ei, this i know too~~~~~ skip

the mood to learn is decreasing

now all i want is just pass the INTERNAL exam

that will really bring me proud and i have done my job to family

external~~~~ i will put it aside

many people say after they work will dream back the time when they study

i think i will going to take my external when i dream back my study time

A CHANCE~~~~~ NOT A CHAIN

hopefully i can make a PASS for my external too

i will write it as many as i can

right or wrong, is doesnt matter on that time

i need to settle the feeling from my heart

heart feel right, that is alway right

6pm now

there is notthing i can continue to F-ing around

i only have mood on night time for study

without any people around

without any voices come from the outside

a cup of tea or coffee

LET'S PRAY

i am back

OMG
how many year i din write something here d
oh well, whatever
no people concern also
hahahahahha

recently i like to write alot of thing
keep update my status in FB TWITTER too
is this the way to improve english?
really dun think so
i think my english will become more rojak

thing come to worst i think
coming week, exam
just make it pass is enough
i din hope so much
all i need to do is common sense isit?
can i?
isit really so easy for common sense?
think think think, really dun know what is that
ask me go eat is ok la
go remember something like penang indian food or fish soup and dessert
i remember that but i dun know what the key word leh
isit chocolate dessert, can i apply this in the scenario
make me want to double memorizing
isit become more worst
omg, i also dun know how
pls prepare some penang indian food for me in exam hall

study GRE d then see the BA
ya is SEE only
then all the food mix up with pestel and mr porter thing
really become rojak, eat 什饭 also dun have so much sayur la
now how the price for this thing?
cost me HOW MUCH
i almost broke already if pay this
i cant imagine if i study CR in the coming day
lucky angeline give some tips, think about that
feel abit stress less ^^
JUST ABIT, better than dun have ^^

in this night, listen a nice song
make my mood suddenly become better
last friday night ^^ TGIF
from kate perry
i tot is food tim, TGI friday
but the meaning is thank god its friday
hahahaha, but now already sunday
i want sing this song on next friday also cant,
because still have the fucking test on saturday
what a damn,
but whatever, i am singing this song now ^^

chatting chatting chatting,
that is my life
mission, continue to stay at afa
I WANT GO SHEFFIELD
hahahaha
because of this song, my mood really
become really nice
full of music in my mind, all stress out YEAH
i think that all for today

people alway say, follow your heart
but, my heart telling me continue enjoy leh
i want to slap gao my heart d,evil heart hahahahahha
angel alway beside me, amithaba and aleluya XD
what religion also trust abit
hope they can help me in exam,
give me some light to help me pass is enough plssssssss
hahahahahaha
TQ !!!!!!!!!

stress had been totally out this night
SWEET DREAM ^^

说不出的难过

曾经
我们美好的日子
今天竟然出现了头一个句点
我不想把这篇我们的文章
画下一个眼泪的句号

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
因为那时你我都在抢bita分数
谁知道后来关系那么密切
直到现在

我不舍得放开
我不曾想过，我会有为友情哭到这么凶
一篇文章有多少个字
也不能将我对你友情通通写出

没有后悔认识你
因为从“人参”离开后
我已经失去了光明
而你从中取代了他

现在又一次的
让我重回两年前失去的感觉
痛不欲生
没人清楚我的感受
我只能用照片表达

历史终归历史
我们只能从中学习
也只能把它当故事
把它说给别人听
可是未来
没人清楚
有人跟我说过
强者，制造机会
智者，把握机会
弱者，等待机会

你我都清楚，我们都不会是弱者
也还没有到强者
把握机会
想做什么，想读什么
现在是时候，跟回当年的兴趣走
天无绝人之路

这是为你写的一篇部落格
是你独有的文章
费尽心思，
由流泪的，返回安慰的
只是要你感受得到
友情不变的事实，3年
我们可不是白过的
虽然拉曼学院拿走了我们的聚会地点
可是拿不走在学院里的回忆

活出自己的精彩
当然，聚会肯定不会少了你
和那条八婆非洲妹的份

照片会让ww上传
不过我自己做了一个preview


勿忘我“们”
也别忘了你自己的笑容

*等你心情回复，我会给你看看之前所说的
"只能用照片来表达" 的照片给你看 ^^
cheer

hu yan luan yu

if this post i using chinese will be better explanation
but at this moment i dun have much time to taip in chinese

i dun have much to post, but i got to write something
something about
friend
friend, i want to recalculate again
the problem maybe start on mine
so i got to judge myself
am i really too cruel
am i really too sensitive
am i really want so much face given by other
am i really care about friendship
am i know you enough
am i too straight

i also dun know,
can you all pls let me know more about me
i want to know more
sometime i tot i am nice before
sometime i tot i am too playful
but, what have i become

i gave you a good news, but
you gave me a bad
all i know already tell you
but you keep in your hearts while i am so care
after care
i get slap
am i do wrong
i also dun know~~~~~~~~~~~

that is call 自作自受
i accept it now
really forgive me
will not have next time
soli for that i cant done the task
i will responsible